Hey everybody. Its been a minute since I have written a journal and I wasn't going to make one until next week, but fuck it. Let's set it off.
Before I begin, I know its late, but I would like to thank everybody for the birthday wishes I received in September. I love you guys and you made my day a bit brighter. Also, next month I am going on vacation finally to get away from everyone and everything because honestly, I am tired. Not physically, but mentally. I will be moving early next year as well and might be closing commissions but only opened to certain people that I absolutely love working with and don't cause me any problems. I will explain further in my rant. Get ready.
Okay, in the past few years, I have dealt with some very unruly, aggressive, and just downright mean-spirited people on here. I've had folks call me everything from a bitch, to a scammer, and even use racial slurs. Now, I have dealt with all kinds of shit throughout my life and I am not ashamed of that or where I came from in order to graduate at the top of my class and go to school for two degrees. I lived in the South all my life and endured a hell no one has ever been through or wish on their own worst enemy. I am a hard worker, a great friend, great listener and a wonderful mom, but people seem to know me better than, well, me. I communicate as best as I could with folks. Sometimes I don't because honestly, I don't get enough rest so I try not to overwhelm myself, but the impatience I have to deal with from some folks has literally cast me back into the hole I once gotten out of. People who are impatient and aggressive, go out of their way to spam my inbox with notes and emails or come to my streams to see if I am working on their commission(s). Or better yet, threaten me with actual violence or notify Paypal to file a dispute over a cheap commission. Never mind me sending them info and updating them. All this year, I somehow stayed collected despite the chaos I had to endure. Something happened with my son and my mom refuses to give me her number to periodically check on him and I am really far away from home plus my place was wrecked by that hurricane during this time. I let people know what's going on so they won't say I am avoiding them or ignoring them. Sometimes, I admit that time moves too fast and I lose track of it but still give them their stuff.
I don't beg anyone to help me financially even though some people say its okay to ask for help. I work for it because I'm all I got. I have been trying to get my place in order to avoid mold and plumping that got damaged after Hurricane Harvey. Its been a long and stressful year. When I write these journals, I am not writing them just to be writing them or have people take pity on me. I write them because that's what its here for and that is to express myself or let people know what's been going on. I've had folks bring up my issues to my face and tried to mentally break me because they took what I wrote in these journals to demean me. They mocked me as if I made people feel sorry for me when I don't even hardly talk to anyone on here or be active because I am constantly working. They insult me and I take it all in because I am so used to it. I have heard it all before. Tell me shit I DON'T know about myself because otherwise, you're just making yourself look like a fool. The commissions I did in the past, helped my kid back home with private school costs, food, clothes, etc. I still worked and went to school until I started having chronic health problems. It gotten so bad, that I had to quit my job, yet, I couldn't keep my insurance up and eventually, I went without it for about 2 years making my condition worse. In the midst of that, I decided to become a commission artist until I found another job. This was in 2014-15. At first, it was okay. But then, it became something that slowly began to drain my love for art.
Now I try to be fair, be clear, and direct with folks because it saves me a bunch of time in repeating the same things over and over. People have lied about reading the rules and guidelines, only to turn around and berate me over something they failed to mention on specify. People will assume anything about you and here I am, constantly trying to be a good person, but being the bigger person is overrated. I have done free upgrades and other shit only to have someone talk about me and their friend notified me on here and told me what they said, even though I didn't have to do anything at all to make up for the time that was during the hurricane season. I could have been mean, I could have scammed them, but what's the point in doing that when you're never did it at all? I have learned that no matter how nice you are, people still will find something to complain about. I didn't ask for this or to be disrespected by strangers. If I am communicating with you, updating you the best way I can, it means you will get your commission. Just let me work and not stress out. I never set completion dates because anything can happen during that time and people believe that art takes up to an hour when it actually doesn't. I don't want people to wait, but they don't care. So here is a small layout on how this shit gets done.
This will be for Basic, Full, and Specialty Commissions
Basic is $35. Its the second cheapest set in my commission list. Let's add time and labor.
It can take up to 8-9 hours or 3 days to complete it depending on the workload. Sometimes, it may take even longer if there are multiple characters. That can take up to 16 hours for 3 people or a week with 2 hours a day. The fastest Basic commission I've done, took 5-6 hours and that was streaming most of it on Picarto then I added a few more hours just to get the details right.
Full is $45. It was the third set that was the most popular. Let's add time and labor.
It can take 5-7 days/week and a half split by 3 hours and 14 minutes a day to draw and color one person to two plus breaks.
Specialty is $55. Its the firth set in my commission list.
Specialty commissions can take a long time to do because there will be a lot of detail going in it, so roughly about 2 or more weeks... to get done because other commissions had to be done so all of these were worked on and off. Hence how I got behind. Its the main reason I shut them down because Basics I can actually handle without people bitching about their commission.
And yet... people actually assumed that all three sets could be done in less time. That meant I would have to sit at my desk for X amount of hours to get done with one commission. Fuck cooking, shitting, cleaning, or washing my ass. It doesn't matter what I say or do to justify the situation, but folks do not listen or read my stuff and then turn around and make me out to be the bad guy because they didn't get what they wanted. Now the people who are awesome and understanding, I'm always gonna do something extra for them to let them know that I appreciate them. But the ones who rage and curse me out because they're having war flashbacks of the artist who fucked them over, its a hard thing to do because I want to be able to satisfy my customers since folks are quick to let their feelings/emotions take over. I still give them upgrades and I still endure their bitching, moaning, and complaining. Look, I don't give a fuck who hurt you or ripped you off, but please do not bring it to my account or my inbox because regardless of whatever is going in my life, don't use that as ammunition and still demand your commission from me, because that's when I will consider you not hiring me again and getting you blacklisted. I don't even care if you don't hire me again. If you cannot work with me, then I will refuse to work with you. I don't give a shit if you talk bad about me in journals, notes, Skype, WHATEVER! But what you will not do, is belittle me and talk shit that you absolutely know nothing of. I am only an artist but I do have low patience, if you feel that shit may not go the way you want, PLEASE order a WIP! PLEASE! If you fucking read my rules and guidelines and continuously ignore them, I will refuse your patronage. I have dealt with folks bitching about my pricing talking about how expensive it was when folks charge WAY more than me; then bitching about why they should support me on Patreon, but wanted free shit and thought that faves were enough. Its why I mostly went back to commissions because nobody was supporting my work. I had people actually tell me that they wouldn't do anything to support the page or spread news! It was bad enough that barely anyone wanted to help me set it up since I didn't know what to do even when I had asked. People I have known on this shitty site since 2010 and now! Yet, I am still hit with a barrage of fuckshit!
If you don't like me, I don't care. If you don't want to commission me, I don't care, but I am not going to tolerate anybody's shit any longer. I respect a lot of folks here and what they do. I just want to be able to get the same treatment in return. I even stopped asking for commissions unless I REALLY needed something because people have went out of their way to make me feel like nothing. Did I actually fuck up somewhere? Did I do something that made this happen? This is the first time I have gotten behind and I'm already crucified. Its too much. I love drawing and I love writing, but now, I don't know. Its exhausting and I haven't even gotten shit for Thanksgiving dinner because I usually help out and make food plates for folks. I want to remain quiet and not really talk to anyone on here because if I do something they don't like, they'll bring it up and shit on me again. Whenever somebody tried to be my friend on here, I pushed them all away because it was my fault for letting them in. And yet, I would converse with folks that were going through the same things I was going through and felt peace.
I've come to the conclusion that I don't give a fuck anymore. I'm tired of being nice. I'm tired of trying to make people who do not like me, happy on here. I am tired of taking shit and not retaliating like I used to do because I didn't want to be known as an asshole or a bitch. But maybe that's what people like and that's what they'll get.
For the rest of the month, I will be posting the remaining stuff on here that includes stories, art, and commissions. I don't want to be bothered even after I leave home next month. I'm tired of this shit. I have been working nonstop for weeks and if people want to still bitch and moan about commissions, you will be blacklisted to Artists Beware and I will go on my merry little way until its done. You won't have to worry about me taking your money because other artists won't. I just don't like dealing with impatient and inconsiderate folks. I am tired of explaining and defending myself. I don't charge tax or ask for tips and its still something, but I'm a thief and a scammer. Hah. Laughable... I don't care what happens next. I ain't got shit else to lose. So that's it and I have said my peace. Hope you all have a Happy Thanksgiving and a Merry Xmas.
Until Next year.~
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